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2009-05-22, 8:41 p.m.
I’ve been acing weird all day.
Yelling, cursing, eating, purging, crying.
I wanted cigarettes.
I wanted food.
I stole N’s credit card and went to the store to buy binge food.
I couldn’t keep quiet about it so I told him everything after I had purged.
At first I lied and said that my mom had sent me money.
But at the end of the day, I told the truth.
And that matters, doesn’t it?
I feel like such a horrible person.
My addiction makes me steal and lie.
I feel awful.
I thought I had left this behind me…
But I haven’t.
I’ve purged two times today but I still can't stop thinking about cookies and ice-cream.
I am hungry.
I am always so hungry.
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