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2009-10-10, 9:35 p.m.

I’ve been purging like crazy for like 4 days or so.
Today I purged 6 times.
Without even binging properly.
Didn’t purge properly either, that’s why I did it so many times.
I need a break, from this.
I need to relax.
The problem is, I feel sick to my stomach 24/7.
Especially after eating something.
This is hard.
I don’t know what to do.
Well, we don’t have much money left so I can’t binge even if I would want to.
That’s good.
I need to see food as fuel, something that the body needs to survive, not as a drug, a fix.
I need to learn to see food differently.

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