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2008-11-28, 12:59 a.m.
My sister was here today and she was really mean to me.
She kept saying I was fat, she said it like 10 times in two hours.
I felt like fucking shit, as soon as she left I binged and purged.
I had been doing so good, I hadn’t binged for 2 weeks.
I’m still upset.
I’ve gained a little weight I know that but I’m not fat.
Maybe a couple of pounds overweight but not fucking fat.
I know that.
At least my brain knows.
My body doesn’t know, so I feel really sick.
I want to binge and purge again.
Just because of what she said.
She’s so mean.
I brought her a Christmas gift today and then she says all those nasty things to me…
It hurts my feelings.
I’m a person, not a piece of shit she can treat however she wants to.
And she knows I have an eating disorder, so how could she say that to me?
I always tell her she’s beautiful.
And then she turns around and does this to me…
I can’t believe it.
Monster is exactly like that and that is why I stay away from him, he is the reason why I’ve tried to kill myself all those times.
Now he’s not here and what is she here to replace him or what?
She must want to hurt me on purpose.
But why?
What have I ever done to her?
When I think about it, she told me I was fat when I was underweight too.
But it was a long time ago.
I had forgotten how it felt.
She’s a mean and horrible person.
I love her, but only because she is my little sister, to be honest I don’t like her at all.
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